Always a Loveolution

The aftermath of Columbus Day: Do you know why we honor this man?

The above article I have researched on a number of levels and it comes at no surprise.  I have always wondered why we celebrate a man who destroyed the hearts of so many. Why do we celebrate a man that is so “ugly” there really are not enough words to clearly describe what today we would call a “socio-path”, filled with greed, and abuse.  Additionally, why do we teach this false look at history to our children??

His-tory should be our lesson to evolve our future. The present moment is where the actions need to take place to shape the beautiful path we walk. Therefore, our actions of celebrating a man, alongside the likes of Martin Luther King Jr., seems all kinds of wrong.  However, if you look really deep, this type of behavior is being rewarded all over the world on a day to day basis.

Today our world is filled with a great deal of suffering because of men like Columbus. A fear based society that is not progressive enough to critically think about the truth. Some may perceive this as being negative, I simply perceive it as  a gift. It is not easy to walk forward in your own light. It takes a great deal of courage to ask questions and make decisions based on facts and intuition instead of emotional based opinions. However, these are the great gifts that our higher power bestowed upon us and inside of us.  A primal calling to right the world instead of dividing it by color, race, and class. This is why we get so emotional when we witness the suffering of others.  This is why we feel the need to fight for any cause whether it come at the hands of war, politics, or greed.

We can look to our history and clearly see the men and women in the world that walked in their light. Individuals such as Gandhi, Mother Theresa, and Jesus just to name a few, spoke to us about loving those around us and supporting this beautiful world. We take these messages and use them for feel good moments then go right back to joining the flock.

Media outlets, politics, congress, and everything connected in between focus on false evidence becoming reality. Many in this world just go with the flow, but in our world today you need to truly create your own flow….even if this means digging your own river.  It sure is easier to flock with the sheeps, but that is not going to change the world around us.

You are not just a small drop in the ocean waters, you are an ocean in a drop – Rumi

It is when we find the courage to ask simple questions, research our history, and seek truth, that we will truly soar. How do we prepare to soar? Well this means that you have to live a life that is not supported by the world around us today. You must stop looking for others to validate and define your success. You must be able to critically think instead of argue over simple opinions that will never gain forward momentum.

The world around us always has a story to tell. Most often it isn’t a story that warms my heart. Does it warm yours? We have been told the world was flat. Did our pioneers really believe this? It doesn’t matter, but what does matter is that perception may be the reality. However, in no way is this the truth. I teach my son to speak his truth even if it isn’t the same as those around him. I teach him how to love and understand the world and those who we see as different. Most importantly I teach him to love without condition and to love himself.  If I teach these values to my son then I better be following these same values to set an example….Our actions speak our truth.

Speak your truth!!

Love and light!

A Tribute to Emma

Picture of EMMA

“My soul can find no staircase to heaven unless it be through Earth’s loveliness” – Michelangelo

It is in the depths of a soul that we find the truths that can help us move through this journey. Each day with each challenge we gain wisdom, even at its darkest hour. The wisdom doesn’t always find its way in courage and it is not always supported by those around us. It is when we feel so alone, even amongst our loved ones that we suffer.
We all face our challenges, but I am sure it would be easy to agree that the loss of a child is just unbearable. There is no preparation enough to share how to move forward to create a new walking path. There is just the love of those around you to say; sorry will never be enough as I can never understand, but I am here to sit with you and just hold your hand!

To my amazing friend Keriann and her family as they celebrate their daughter Emma. She will always be an inspiration of true light and love!

Listen to the sweet whispers of the waking morning that speak of pure inspiration.
A beautiful soul, trilling the song of Peace, while blazing a path of love
Your beautiful smile is an engrained metaphor in the hearts of all those you touch.
You have gone home to fly with the Angels, leaving a peace in your path that will forever be a memory
At the top of each breath is the light of your soul; this will help ease the grief that your journey has ended.
As to walk in the woods and meet a fallen tree may seem lonely, but you will always be the playful light there to shine your love.
You are free and full of EMMAnating love as an imprint of your sweet spirit.

Chasing Life

I first want to start by apologizing…for some reason word press was not working and every time I thought I was just sending out the “Sedona Experience” I was sending it out to all outlets.  My blog is  I don’t know how I was putting the @ symbol in there.

So now that I am getting somewhat grounded back into life, I realize how going away, leaving the space your live your “daily” life is so awakening. You get to experience a new environment, meet new people, and become more conscious. This is really how we should consciously live our lives everyday, but we get attached. We get attached to the way we like things, our coffee, our exercise regimen, and we begin to live almost in a slight trance. It is actually quite fascinating.

While I was in Sedona, I learned a lot about hypnosis and the conscious/subconscious mind. Something as simple as a presenter videoing themselves in front of a library of books to empower the suggestion of intelligence, power, and respect. Once you are aware you start to see these suggestions everywhere, they are soo subtle, but powerful.

Hollywood also helps us out with all kinds of suggestions in life. Matter of fact, watching t.v. is considered a light trance which is why marketing efforts are so high and specific to their audience.  I love to settle at night with bad tv, although some shows have just gotten crazy. I think it is important to dumb down a bit, but how dumb it the question.

Recently, Hollywood has produced a few movies that are brilliant suggestions. The first “The Lego Movie”. It is an amazing movie written to awaken its watchers. It is about “Lord Business” (The government) hypnotizing the entire population. I don’t want to share too much because I believe that it is worth the watch whether you have kids or not. The suggestions of awakening are quite amazing and my heart was full as Sawyer shared what he thought the movie was about.

This quote sums it up!

“Once the soul awakens, the search begins and you can never go back. From then on, you are inflamed with a special longing that will never again let you linger in the lowlands of complacency and partial fulfillment. The eternal makes you urgent. You are loath to let compromise or the threat of danger hold you back from striving toward the summit of fulfillment.”
― John O’Donohue, Anam Cara: A Book of Celtic Wisdom

On the complete opposite side, there is a new series called “Chasing Life” I thought it to be an interesting title as I am sure we have all felt like we are chasing life at one point or another. However, when I watched the first episode I was just dizzy. It is about a young girl who accidentally finds out she has Leukemia. She decides that she is not going to tell anyone because no one can handle this and her life has just gotten on track with work and love. I felt my belly sink as I thought how ridiculous a scenario to be. The fact that they make an illness just seem like a bad day. The suggestion that we should just accept the word “cancer” like brushing our teeth. This was so unrealistic I couldn’t even get past the first 10 minutes.

As I have shared before the definition of the word cancer:

1 a malignant and invasive growth or tumor, especially one originating in epithelium, tending to recur after excision and to metastasize to other sites or any disease characterized by such growths.
any evil condition or thing that spreads destructively; blight.

I am pretty confident when I got the phone call on Oct. 06, 2011 I was not going to act as though I didn’t have time in my life, but I certainly was not going to let it define me. My journey was a gift from God to awaken to the truths around me. A journey that took me back to my soul to learn some amazing lessons. Life will give us these gifts, the greatest is to “wake up”. This doesn’t mean you are further ahead, more enlightened it just means you are connected to the simple fact that we are one with God and each other.


Many blessings,

Love Holly

Be the Message

Life is such a beautiful trip. It is as easy as buying a plane ticket to your desired location, showing up at the gate and getting on, each step placed one foot in front of the other. Sure some fly first class, some are on a longer journey then others, but the point is that it is all laid out for us, from beginning to end. However, we don’t always have this wisdom in the moment.

It has been an extraordinary couple of months. We bought a new home, moved to Wisconsin, I am trying to get my book reprocessed because of the mistake made in editing, and before we moved I had a final back surgery to re-correct a fusion from when I was little.  When you have a number of changes in life it certainly brings out all your qualities, but I know in my heart that no matter the journey I still get to decide how I will flow with it. I had forgotten this wisdom and was feeling overwhelmed; to be in truth I felt lost. Until Sawyer reminded me.

Today Sawyer and I were walking into Target and he saw a few bags on the ground and he said “momma someone littered” and I said yes they did. He practically cut me off he was so excited to share his thoughts. He said “Mother Earth is not going to heal if people keep doing things like that” My heart melted. Sawyer has had a little bit of a rough time transitioning. Who knows exactly why, there are a number of guesses…change, loss of control, but either way it is cause for frustration because no one wants to see their child flailing. In addition, as parents we tend to blame ourselves for every period of growth, every life lesson, forgetting that those are our children’s lessons. It reminded me that Sawyer is grasping the tools Tad and I are teaching him to be a kind, loving person. However, right now, he faces a life lesson, which is moving. Each day he gets closer connected to his journey because Tad and I are keeping the rules hard.  It is so difficult to discipline your child when you understand there is cause for their behavior, but this is when it is even more important. His comment today reminded me of this. After I got him dropped off at school, a big kiss good-bye, I got in my car and the tears just unloaded. Sometimes it just seems like you are barely gonna catch your next breath, and something happens to give you space; wisdom and guidance within the same breath to know that everything will always work out as it is divinely designed.

All this sometimes seems so easy to write, but yet so hard when you want someone to just protect you from falling. I feel so blessed to have these signs because without them I may not remember. My ego hard at work to make me feel the stress as if it is a part of my mind/ body/ soul. So today through Sawyer’s heart, I remember the words of a very evolved soul: Be the message, be your heart. Living from your heart space will ensure that there is no need to worry. As I looked back on this past week I recognized that the physical release of tears is like watering your soul’s garden…and it needed some watering.

With all these realizations and adjustments, I just said a quick prayer. The prayer:

Make me an instrument of your peace;
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is error, the truth;
Where there is doubt, the faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
And where there is sadness, joy.

Around me I felt as all was as it should be, filled with love and happening divinely. Let us all have this reminder, even when you feel the world on your shoulders.

This left me with one thought, live the message. Don’t worry about all the uncontrollable aspects of life or when life seems out of control, live the message. Stick with the simple elements of love.

When people show you who they really are you need to believe them!