My last post I realized that I didn’t quite include the title of the post, so I have decided to go back and explain while giving an update on my healing.
There is no question that going through a bone marrow transplant requires pharmaceutical support?? Or does it? I am not so sure that this journey is about the physical experience, but is about my heart. I have done a lot of what is called journey work and journaling, I feel so light and have found new passions in my life. Love and Forgiveness is the path that heals most efficiently, but your ego wants you to stay mad and continue to create the story as to why you should be mad about an old boss or someone who owes you money. Who cares, manifest the money by yourself.
I was once at a conference where we learned a lot about science combined with spirituality. This woman took out a dollar bill and she explained the science behind that 1$. This is just atoms and energy and you can actually measure the energy from any object. So she explained that if you are angry towards money, or feel that you don’t have enough, all that negative energy is going to act like a shield. However, if you believe you deserve abundance and use funds in a loving way you may see a lot more float into your life. I have seen this happen first hand to many people.
There is no difference with this example as there is with illness. If you fear it will continue to cause suffering in your life. If you believe you are healed and healthy, embracing all the lessons that come along with this Dis—–Ease then it will be an effortless journey. I have changed many of my thoughts and I can’t believe how effortless things are opening up for me. All of my blood work is completely beautiful and I am 100%accepted Shads white cells which is really exciting. In addition, all the people who pray for me….please don’t stop bc I believe that is a large part of this as well.
Getting to the pill-box: I can’t imagine what this does to a mother and Father. My mother has held strong for me and really has helped me change my thoughts when I was basking in fear. My Mother and Tad have tag teamed making sure that I am in a good place. They let me cry when I am scared, but help pull it all full circle. It is hilarious when I walk into the kitchen and she is organizing all the pills in the little red box like I am an 80-year-old woman. Then the arguments about if I took the right ones…she says it is my memory “but it is ok because once I get off the pills it will be better ” flashes a big old smile. I went up to my brother’s house to have a weekend out of the house and she even called to make sure I took my pills. It has been comical in so many ways. Then Tad is like the secret spy, just watching and when he feels I need to eat more a shake shows up on my night stand. Don’t get me wrong I do love how much they are taking care of me because it just reminds me of how much they love me. Love from all who surround you is an amazing healer…..I am blessed.
I still have some healing to do and don’t think that when I head to the doctor to get blood drawn that I don’t feel the power of fear. But I just work my mantras that I have created and see myself as whole, as I always will be.
I am weaning off medication, exercising, and need to gain about 30 lbs any suggestions would be great. Love and miss you all. If you want to come and visit I would love to see you!!