In order to create your true reality you must leave fear in the dark, judgment in the past, and open your heart fully to LOVE! It is a choice that is waiting to spread through you and all those you choose to be in your reality.
It seems that this above sentence is very difficult to stay true to yourself. I am working so hard to dissolve any fears that may try to creep into my head, but with 12,000 – 60,000 thoughts per day and being on house arrest 🙂 it is a bit tough to get your head straight. Meditation, affirmation, reading, and my family is helping me work through this. Today I am Leukemia free…..what a success, but my biggest fear is that it will come back. I WILL NOT live each day with this fear. I am so blessed that I went into remission in 2 weeks. I believe there is a bigger plan here, however, there is no question that this fear is triggered by things that I see, read or things people say in innocence. I say my no fear mantra and immediately I feel my body chemistry change. Leukemia has been an opportunity to learn about fear and face it. We all have fears, but when you really have to face fear you need to learn techniques to squash them, or push them so far into the past that it is just a memory that doesn’t affect the present. This is our choice…..I am choosing to move past fear, it doesn’t happen in a day, but huge strides since October. I am facing it head on softly and gently like a goddess, instead of a warrior. I am taking this route because the more I listen to the fear the more I realize how much of a trick it really is and how my mind wants to keep this obstacle course in full swing. Today, I will Love this fear bc it has taught me a lesson the most precious life lesson.
Fear……it is a beast. Running its course through most of our lives, I can only imagine what the world would look like if there was no fear or even less fear. (Can we say Happyville)!! Fear does an amazing job fooling many of us as our inner voice, the ego doesn’t want us to know the truth. Therefore, we take the hard path because of fear, not realizing that if we listen to our inner guide, life would be easier and filled with so much more love. We wouldn’t feel that missing piece or feel misguided in life.
When one feels misguided, where is the most common place we look? Outside ourselves, often looking to our culture and society to give us a definition of what is right and wrong. Of course this starts with our parents mold, however, we quickly take over as early as grade school. This is where we really experience judgment and begin creating our story. Fear keeps you working and living externally so you don’t notice that you don’t like your job, haven’t been on vacation for 5 years because you don’t have the money, or want to lose weight but you don’t have time to exercise. These are just a couple of examples of many that keep you living in fear, keeping the door closed to living your true life.
Fear is the biggest creator of boundaries and judgment. It can keep us in the handcuffs of suffering for many years. There are many examples of fear creating boundaries and judgment. It can be as simple as seeing a women who is dressed beautifully and you fear that you don’t look as good or it can be going to dinner with a friend and you are a raw foodist. You batter her through most of dinner because of her choice in food. Making yourself feel better and your friend is left crying in her chix parmagian…LOL That is just a joke, but you get what I am saying. Fears hide themselves. Yes it can be a big fear, but insecurity is a fear, worry is a fear. As I said before fear (ego) is extremely tricky, much like a chameleon. Once you start to recognize fear in its simplest and largest forms it becomes easier to erase them from your life.
However, you have to identify them first!!
I sat down one night and listed all the things I believe are fears, it was getting so long I stopped to work on it later. 🙂 I was shocked bc I work through yoga to minimize fear, so now I am digging . It was really an amazing exercise as I then wrote how I can release these fears to be free so I can LIVE and BE HAPPY!
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