It has been a week of shocking news and a great opportunity to put into motion all of my truths in life. On Thursday of last week I was told that I have Leukemia. Tad and I have decided to change the name to lovealution to make it seem much more loving and less fearful. Truly I get to decide what I will give power to. We have been designed to fear cancer instead of looking at it as an opportunity to see the amazing work that our physical vessel is capable. My spirit is divinely perfect as it is created and made in the image and likeness of God, therefore I am well, whole, and complete. I need you all to hold that thought for me as well.
I will be going to start chemo tomorrow and love my way through this journey. I have decided that fighting is just not my style but loving my way through is a much better way to embrace this gift. “With any disease, it will linger and recur when its nurtured by apprehension, until embraced as a great teacher and gift.” Already in three days the internal shift that I have felt it beyond words. The amount of love that I feel it doesn’t translate to anything I have ever known. I have moments of fear, but those moments are the moments that I attach to false outcomes. I can easily see my ego trying to keep me separate from my GOD. However, with that being said I have taken the time to be scared, grieve, and make peace with this so I can move forward. Looking into the eye of the tiger was a very scary moment. That moment proved to go so far beyond fear that it brought me back to truth. I have decided this is going to be the most amazing experience of my life. I will align and apply all of my spiritual tools and beliefs to this point in life. I get to do this all in a short time.
During this time I have been so thankful for the outpouring of love and support. You are never bothering me…you have no idea how good it feels to read strong words of encouragement and love. I have a couple of requests. First I ask that you take your moment of fear/sadness face that and then embrace the beauty in this. I ask that you envision once a day (or more 🙂 me telling you how easy this is and how I am already free of the lovealution) Envision the trillions of cells in my body working together in light and love. Envision me telling you I AM WELL!! Secondly any prayers or prayer chains to help keep the loving energy coming my way would be such an appreciation…I feel all the love I am welcoming already.
I started treatment under the care of Dana Farber on Monday, however, I am in patient at Brigham and Womans for a month of treatment. My naturopathic friends have assured that this particular lovealution is actually treated very successfully with chemo. After this first part I will begin my healing and cleaning up my body. At this point and time I have no symptoms, it was by the grace of God that I just went to get a blood test to check my blood out. Even so all my blood work was completely normal so the Angel in the pathlab just happened to see something he thought needed more testing. This will be a journey of realization and awakening. I will post every day and would love all your support and feedback during this journey in my life.