“We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves. – Buddha
As the walls are slowly starting to close in on me, just as all my counts are starting to hit bottom (which is exactly what they want to happen YAY!), I am realizing that this first phase of treatment is like Interval Training. I imagine myself in spin class, peddling like the crazy lady I am, pretending to be the next contender for the Tour de France, minus the outfit. Getting ready to step one leg over the bike, knowing that this is that most challenging course the world knows. Going as hard and strong as I can, and then I hear the instruction- it is time to slow down for the great break where I check breath, scenery, and of course check in with my thoughts. It is here in the peaks and valley that thoughts can completely shift your entire experience in so many directions.
This image is not that far from my current reality, as I sit on the stationary bike in room 52. The walls decorated with so many amazing cards, words of encouragement, two vision boards, and pictures. The pictures are like gold, as they represent so much laughter, love, and abundance. Reminding me that my prayers are already answered and I just have to work backwards to finish. The nurses are amazing and are true healers in their support during my adventure, adding much laughter and love.
So here we are, a choice of epic proportion. I can choose my ego or God Source…simple as that. The divided mind is set up into two pathways: one the ego, which sets up the landscape of suffering through fearful thoughts, negative outcomes, false attachments, and sometimes may even try to be the voice of reason. The second is the God Mind, which is the most brilliant lit path that guides through a constant love and truth. So this should be a simple choice? It is a simple choice, but it is the interweaving of the paths that creates the learning lessons of life and free will.
At 3 am, 2 of the nurses and I tried to maneuver through these deep thoughts and it almost seemed to take on a scene Monty Python Style. After much laughter and even getting into a small conversation about all the reality TV we use to try to get a “break” from our thoughts, I decided that I made a small stride to understanding: It is a choice to be of and embrace the God (Source) Mind. However, it may be important to check in with the ego mind instead of ignoring its very existence. Trying to push away the thoughts will allow the ego to become a stronger force, which will try to confuse you and upset the delicate balance you need during a challenge. The ego mind is very unpredictable and creates boundary within boundary, merely taking every opportunity it sees to plant the seeds of doubt.
However, just when you think that you have the odds stacked against you, you sense the familiarity of Gods light ever so gently guiding you back. Each time you turn to look back to Gods path the light just seems sweeter. In many instances it is just as if you never left. The familiarity of the light is so comforting and warm that there is no question of confusion. You just simply feel love and navigation by love is always the right direction to our “gut”. To feel the strength in progress being made and knowing that it doesn’t have to be looked upon as a step backwards, it is just a victorious step.
The polarities of the ego mind vs. God Mind are so deep and intricate that we could and do spend a lifetime sorting them through. Taking notice of the scenery in the ego mind is the contrast to the space that God invites us to live each day, until eventually the ego mind has been passed by through the whisper of wisdom.
There are so many examples of how the divided mind shapes our lives. When hearing stories of the Chilean minors, most of them spoke directly of the egoic thoughts that tried to weaken their source and their will to survive. There are countless books that guide us on the journey to understand and move past blocking points of the ego. A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle, in my opinion, is one of the best tools. However, in day-to-day life it can seem a challenge keeping the weeds pulled from the Garden of the mind. Tools I have come to use daily and may be familiar to many of you:
- Feel as if you already have what you want- Instead of focusing on the lack, feel every emotion connected to this manifestation as if it is already in your life. “Feeling is the language that speaks, feel as though your goal is accomplished and your prayer is already answered.”
- Like attracts like- so make sure you align yourself with like energy then act upon your God Mind.
- Quit the “yeah, but” or waiting for the other shoe- The ego wants to plant the seed of doubt so be prepared and have an out clause. For me it is going back to step 1.
- Gratitude- focusing on conscious abundance. Dr. Wayne Dyer recommends the affirmation “I appreciate all that I am and all that I have.”
- Trust your gut and make peace with your current reality.
Once this becomes second nature to you, you will feel a renewed sense of peace in working with our thoughts. “Change your thoughts, Change your life” WD
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Peace and Blessings,